Shawty's like a melody

HONGKONG !

2010-03-24T18:50:00.001+08:00

Hongkong Day 1

Time to leave for hongkonggg !

Took SIA ! hehe , reached hongkong abt 6 pm

Checked in into the awesome 5 star Marriot hotel skycity :D

Love that awesome place !

Day 2
Woke up early in the morning and went for breakfast
and went to lie dui !
Like bring out your team !
hahaha , test the competition gounds !
competition starteeeed ! hehe

Okayyyyyy , i know i look retarded :X

hahaha , was waving DES flag . heh
Went to prepare for our first event , Ji ti quan , our group event !
Came off with 9 points ! Gold :D

Day 3
Since there wasnt anyone in our team that have a event on that day so yeah
We went on a tour to some attractions , not sure where , or rather i couldnt rmb whr :X
hahaha , only rmb going to one temple andd and and some landmarks :X

Day 4 ! Indivual events starts , I was first on the list to go ! I swearrrrrrrrr man i was freaking nervous , haha ! Cause walaooo , the 3 behind me all looked damn pro , and they were from the same team , wthhhhhhhh , okayyyyyy there was 8 competitiors altogether (including me), it was time for me to ! haha , i made a small mistake at beginning only then the rest was okay ! came off with 3rd 8.68 ! The rest slowly came in to compete , all of them did awesome ! (: my quan got 8.6 ! First , cause i am the only one in the whole catergory :X hahaha

Then ! celebration at night ! Ice cream ! chips ! sodaaaaa ! (:

Day 5 !
DISNEYLAND HONGKONG !
wooooooooooooooooooo , The place was awesome (:
hehehe , There was three land tommorow land , adventure land and fantasy land !
Hahahah , Space mountain was freaking fun , althought it was a roller coaster in the dark with no vertical drop , which is not at all exciting ! The speed was superb ! it was damn damn fast , i thought my head was gonna fly off ! HAHAH , heeeeee . said alot of other rides but couldnt rmb :X
Sat Teacup , that ride was bitc!@#$%^&
Made me and weijie almost pukeeee

There was two disneyland workers painting the floor with coffee !

And of course, again , we tried to be like guangwei and his meowmeow pose :X

We look like his cousinS huh ? HAHAH !
Behind is the castle of Fantasy's land !

There was alot of things that happen ! But obviously i cant rmb :X
Then at night we checked in MeTroScaryPark Hotel at mongkok , whew , stupid zhi wei and woon bing , said it was hunted and we believed >< lol its kinda stupid but it scared us , the hotel was freaky at first but then it was okay later , it had free previews of

Day 6 !
Ocean park !
The rides there was damn thrilling , 360s Vertical drops woooooooooo!
hahaha , and YanDan laoshi was damn sportinggg ! Hhaha (:
Damn fun !
I think we pissed the pro off that day :X hahaha
I smacked him . HAHAHA
At night ! Shopping at Fa Yuen street , things was cheap , bargained like mad , haha but didnt have much time to shop!
Day 7
woke up , ate , check out ! and homee :D

Well well , i sure missed hongkong ! The weather there is freaking nice , I sure liked my stay at hongkong , at marriot hotel of course (:
Hehhe
I know this post is longggg longgggg overdued :X budden blogger pisses me off by not letting me load pictures ._.
HAHAH
bye (:

I miss you

2010-03-11T07:48:00.000+08:00

OFF TO HONGKONG !
11TH ~ 17TH MARCH
thanks for visiting !

take care everyone !
WILL MISS YOU ALL :D
HAPPY HOLIDAYS !

Mum and her

2010-03-08T20:22:00.001+08:00

hello ..
Well i guess i am very moody now , considering all the fucked up things happening
Dont wish to mention , you'll understand my state , its when you need moral support the most
you have non from your family non from some one you love so much
Ahh , i need your support so damn bad . i miss you so damn much .
Forget it since no one cares ..
Don't wish to mention anything .

Kay , class today .
Nothing much
Art was pretty much slackeddddddddd
The last period was geog
ms kang didnt come!
a relief teacher came for only 1 period
then left , leaving the class without teacher
for another 1 period . Not wanting to get our chairman into trouble
we stayed for another period in class ! so guai right 3D
hahaha , we all gathered and talk about ghost games and stories
Funnnnnnn , haha adventourous ppl heh
3D is getting more bonded :D
3D FTW
hahaha
Right after school went to meet simon gw yz to buy costume , went till chinatown but they no stock !
den went back to brash plaza to get ! black and silver . haha
dont have full white ! and no stock toooooo bad .
Me and gw got the same one . haha
his is bigger .
then homeeeeeeeeeeee
feeling so fucking fucked up right now
Hongkong is less then 3 days away
shit!

Mum and you . you are the utmost important two woman in my life and yet again and again this kind of things happen , what am i suppose to do ? what else can i say ?
i know you both done alot for me , but why does is seems that when i need support from you both the most it just seem that i lost both of you . why why why?

Its true

2010-03-06T23:03:00.001+08:00

Yes , its true i dont understand
and you know how much that i want to .

It is so disturbing
i close my eyes , i see you
I sleep i dream of you
my shirt stains your scent
when i wanna buy things i think of what to get for you
When i thought i can have some silence to some music with my earpiece
your voice just rings through my head

I think i have overdosed you , drug ..

shala

2010-03-06T22:56:00.000+08:00

Heloooooooooooooooo ! meowwwwwwzx
hahaha , hi ppl !
Super long week , barely made it ! haha
kkkkkkkkkkk
lets see ......
Friday Xcountry at bedok res
4.6km
Ran throughtout the race , didnt stop ! haha
came in 33th position i think
hahaha
Then after went to macs to Fang rui , caspar and dixon
hahha , fags there ..
Home !
then bath change and everything
went to des to train the chairrrr dance .
awesome dance ! why?!
cause i am the lead :X HAHAHA
oh come on , we all know that . HAHA
jkkkkkkkzx
ummmmmmmmm , den trained wushu
ended at 10 plus
liu qiang lao shi did a hou kong spin one round in the air . wtf ttm
asssssssssssss . keep saying he dunno how to do ><

Today reach des at 12 plus went to train train train till 6 plus
some briefing , Then went to eat then homeeeee

There is still training tmr at metta schoooooooool OWWWWWWWWW /
hahaha

I know you guys got a problem with my new haircut
stupid looking ? mushroom ?
Well , thats your fucking problem
cause i dont care abt you guys think
I pave my own way .
I have the balls to cut this hairstyle
You guys have?
All you assholes only know to talk .
You all will most probably say oh why should cut say a ugly hairstyle
you know what ?
It still means you don't have the balls
so keep your fucking comments yourself/
nobody asked you all
Cause you have no right to comment abt me
cause i am who i am
You wont change and you cant
thats the way i am , and you never understand and know
dont expect me to be someone you want me to be
cause I am who i am , you cant change , and there is only one .

3rd march 2010

2010-03-03T19:22:00.000+08:00

Today ! 3rd of March Twenty ten
Special day , but i dunno what to post abt

Haha , i was soo busy thinking of you last night ,
that i woke up dreaming abt you 3 times in the same night
Your are drug , i am addicted .
But it is just ...
16 month , Time seem so fast
It was like a week ago when i just met you ,
it was like just yesterday when we were still together
it was like last nigh that we fell apart .
The very day i thought you would be mine forever was the day i lost you .
It is just one thin line in between
this battlefield of love , is like no other .

ASWS ..
this heartbreak disorder , its over ..
this line was the line i wrote when we got things better ..

I loved you I lost you , believe me I wont forget you

2010-03-02T21:59:00.000+08:00

i know its beeeeen rather long since i update
i was too busy studying :X
or rather staring at my com and books the same time
and then falling asleep :X
hahahah Ct weeeeek
4 papers are over
tmr ther is geog and maths
i havent start at its 9. 51 wtf !
HAHA , nvm
who cares i dont care .
hahaha , kay .. erm
today had english and ss
both was okay
after had maths
maths was boring as usual
other teacher finally gave up on us . LOL
FINALLY KAY . she said whoever not interested may sleep
LOLOLOL . joke
after schoooool
went to eat abit with rainnnnnnnnn gayboy
then went to study in the libraby with evaa pan and rain
rain left shortly claimig he have some church stuff
went to meet alicia right !
HAHAH
saw guangwei after that
he told me to follow him to watch a show
as in like live
den i follow then nt even more then 10 steps out of the door
zhongrui kena hammer
lol
what a joke
after that went homeeeeeeee :X
lala , did nothing but sleep
i know i pig but you know i cant help it ! HAHA
woops

I loved you , I lost you but I wont ever forget you
thanks for loving me
deep below i know within you there is little love
that havent ceased yet .
tmr is a 16th anniv , there is nothing much i wish for this time round i just hope that you will continue reading my blog , and i wanna wish you all the best for your exams , i know you dont wanna talk to me but you know i'll always be there for you , be it frens or lovers .
Stay happy and smile for me please ..
Your smile , my living hope

Im getting over you - The click five

2010-02-28T11:39:00.000+08:00

I found your picture in my wallet
Still got your sweater in my closet
I'll bring 'em by, maybe tonight

And people asking how I'm doing
But every question still has you in
I say I'm fine
And I never think about you
But you're always on my mind

I'm getting over you, whoa
I'm getting over you, most of the time
If I say it like I mean it
Then maybe I'll believe it
Like it's true
I'm getting over you

Been playing all the songs you hated
I called the girl I almost dated
She's not the one
But I'm having fun
And I'm better off without you
And I think it's what I want

I'm getting over you, whoa
I'm getting over you, most of the time
If I say it like I mean it
Then maybe I'll believe it
Like it's true
I'm getting over you
Even if it takes forever
I'll get my shit together
I've been doing so much better
I'm getting over you
I'm getting over you
I'm getting over you, (I'm getting over you) whoa
I'm getting over you, most of the time
If I say it like I mean it
Then maybe I'll believe it
Like it's true

I'm getting over you, (I'm getting over you) whoa
I'm getting over you, most of the time
If I say it like I mean it
Then maybe I'll believe it
Like it's true
I'm getting over you
I'm getting over you

If say it and sing it like i mean it
then maybe its true .

dead tireddddddd

2010-02-25T18:33:00.001+08:00

helllllllooooooo
i am tired like fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
Hhahaha
lets seeeeee !

Wednesday !
Skipped morning asm with Zul evaa amshar marilyn joanna ihsan and i forgot who !
hahaha
whateverrrr
had pe run 2.4
Slackeddd much , i think 15 mins plus . HAHA
cause not feeling well and hungry
was practically walkingzxzx
hahaha , nothing much happenedddddddd after that
ohoh , POA !
i got back my POA test !
i was like freaking scared to flung the paper
cause i want to maintain my score for my last test
Den my name was like the last
ms mara went , haix , i have to say that ...
she say in very sad tone then
This boy amazes me , 25/25 ! hahaha
so much for worrying hahaha
Had des after that , stay tilled 10 cause
two monk teachers came to teach
i learned a new techique of flip
with no name
They say is a combination of
backflip frontflip butter kick and aerial twist
hahahaha
REaach home at 12 , bath and fell asleep almost immdietately . HAHAHA

Today !
Had art , got Jacked by jonoh :O
haha . dun care
after school went to eat at simpang den homezxzx

I am sooooooooo obssessed with myself
I dunnozxz why !
Evaa Tan ! CHEER UP !

I have learn to let go . But ,

I Dont think i want to

Helpless i am ):

2010-02-23T16:28:00.001+08:00

Time to update Yay :D
hahaha , alright i know i didnt update for quite long
cause of of of ):
haix
Nvm !

Saturday !
Went down to des to perform for CNY celebrations
Performed Ji ti quan
Quite slack
we were all slacking actually .
haaha !
After that went down to Suntec exhibtion hall
to perform for Fa Zhao shi fu dinner inviatation i think
haha the stage is freaking bigggggg O.O
heh , did ji ti quan again
This time , really do out ahaha
Funzxzx
haha
after that more angbaos came in
teehee (:
I collected like 8 ! haha
after went home blah blah

Sunday and monday
nothing much , or i just couldnt recall :X
Heee .

Today
was super slack
Poa and english teacher didnt come
except for the bitch who took us 4 period of maths
fucked up ass .
Lol
I dun care
I think i am becoming what i use to be again
Is it good ?
no its not , i dont want to be that anymore
but it just seems that i am drifting away
Without your presence to stop me ,
i feel helpless

Evaa Tan ! Thank you :D you know why !
Get well soon kay ! Your ice cream is waiting (:
I am ahlianzxzxz and you are abu ne ne Evaa . hhahahahaa

Dazzled .

2010-02-21T22:39:00.001+08:00

" Love is indeed the sweetest

remedy yet the deadliest poison "

My personality test !

2010-02-21T15:09:00.000+08:00

I took a personality test on colorgentictest.com and heres the results !
quite true though

Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'.

You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.

You lack confidence and that is a great pity because deep down you are indeed a warm caring person. This lack of confidence is making you wary of being drawn into any open discussion or conflict and so you feel as if you should let matters lie and leave well alone. But there may be a pleasant surprise in store for you. You are beginning to grow and very soon - sooner than you believed possible - this warm loving new you will be available for all to see and to appreciate.

Presently, you are experiencing stress because of restriction on your independence. You need and seek respect from other people and it is essential that they appreciate you for yourself and not for what they would like you to be. You have your own beliefs and convictions and you would like to be respected for them. You are anxious to avail yourself of every opportunity that may come your way but nevertheless, come what may, you have the need to control your own destiny without imposed limitations or restrictions.

You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determinatio

2010-02-20T10:54:00.000+08:00

There must be a reason to all this ,
I know i know , loving one doesnt possesing one
Love with all your heart , expect zero return
Thats the attitude , but how many have achieved that
Girl , i wanna let you know how much you affected me in my life
cause you changed me ,
How much of it ?
You know that the best
You said the problem is we been through this too many times
How many times it made us stronger?
Made us love deeper
Make us realise how this love can go around

How much more can a broken heart do ?
But only to seek the truth
Yes i can live without you
But without you , i will be just leading a miserable life ..
What more can i do ..
This feeling is worse then everything else that matters in my life
Cause you mean the world to me
Now that my world is gone ,
Where else can i find it back
Its true , its not the first time this happened
But its the first time the situation is like that
Total strangers we are
all i can do is sit back and watch you take the move
Cause i know , whatever i do now doesnt matter to you anymore
not at all , a significant little thing
You are everything i ask for , everything that i had
now that everything is gone
cause every decision you make just takes me to another dimension
every word you say can send me straight from heaven to hell
or the other way round .
Thats how much you mean to me
472 days together
do i dont really mean anything to you ?

2010-02-19T14:44:00.001+08:00

Well i guess there is nothing more that i can do
This is reality ,
I cant change it
I thought breaking down was the easiest part
But i guess it isnt that easy anymore
this feeling , makes you feel like you are not yourself anymore .
Reality over doubts
doubts have now been cleared ,
Reality comes to light
So many times this happened
My love for you so strong ,
Part and puzzle of life ,
Wont be changed .
I will just keep it alive ,
With whatever you left for me .

I have a little request ..
I want those pictures of us as memories ..

2010-02-19T14:09:00.000+08:00

Why all this ?
So all those you wrote in the letter was just to make my valentine ?
You told me how much love me
You gave courage , motivation , insipiration
and it turned out this way ..

2010-02-19T12:14:00.000+08:00

Well , Didnt go to school today
Sick and all .
.
Stuck at home with the moodiest face ever ..
Yesterday Went to school
Boring as usual .
had stupid art
A3 work not done
god knows how the hell i am going to complete that by monday
when i am having rehearseals and performance this weekend
Fuck .
After school , went home ..
rest and everything
went to des
till 11 .
Home ..

i have no mood to blog all .
Life just keeps getting in the way
Whats all this ?
I never once forgotten all my promises to you
Never once forgotten yours to me
Never doubted your love since then
But ..
Maybe what ?

2010-02-17T23:37:00.001+08:00

heh ! i want to dedicate a post to the following ppl
Clare (: Victoria (: Ruixin (: Nadine (: Chole (: and of course my all whole favourite fat boy Fang rui (:

Clare !
Thanks for trying to cheer me up ! showing me all your retarded crippled toys on the webcam really makes me laugh (:

Victoria !
Thanks for been-ing so tolerent :X althought i keep dao-ing you after awhile
Sorry lah , really no mood

Ruixin !
Hopeless romantics huh :X Your retardness is unparalled man

Nadine !
Thanks for trying to cheer me up Althought i replied after one two msgs
sorry !

Chole !
althought you scolded me but yeah you do make sense (: HAHA

Fang Rui !
You are the best man , the only guy so far who can tahan me whine ! hahah thanks alot man (:

Thhanks to all of you for trying to cheer me up , really appreciate it .
Thanks guys (:

Sorry if i missed out anyone .
I am just too sleeeepy

2010-02-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

I go into the shower without turning on the tap
But water still runs down ..

Love is not a lie
Lying is not love .

When i tried to cool down , this was all i could think of ,
Have confidence her , trust her . Dun stop believing in her ..

I would rather die .

2010-02-17T21:05:00.001+08:00

School was rather amusing today
Was very mood till POA.
When Ms Mara cracked us all up .
With her super funny jokes as usual
haha , was rather high later
God knows why ..
haha , after school went to Tamp
To buy my thigh guard and my jian handle grip .
after like 1 hour plus finally got it
With Guang wei zhi wei and chee chian
They bought guards too .
Went to eat subway
Then home ,
Saw this super cute girl
walking past the mrt station .
When i first saw her , i thought to myself
Why is this japanese girl doing in sg school uni !
hahaha , when i took a closer look
she was wearing Damai 's Uniform
but the skirt was alter till very high
she didnt tie her hair
And her hair was dyed .
I was like woah .
So cute ! haha
wanted to walk over ask for number :X
budden sadly we were going opposite ways
make new frens mah ... hahah
Well , didnt feel like going home
why ?

The fear of disappointment when i dun get what i want to see
the fear when i get home and on the computer
and automatically going to your blog
the fear of breaking down again
Went downstairs to do my artwork as i wanted to some silence
Couldnt help but break down ,
what can i do ?
Zhiwei came down to train awhile with me
Till 8 plus , he talked with me .
felt better , but still bottled with feelings that i cant express

My darkest hour have yet to come ..
Right now , i better be off be died den be here .

CNY !

2010-02-15T17:51:00.000+08:00

Hello ! heh , i have been rather lazy to update nowadays
yeah :X i admit
HAHA
kayyy , Yesterday Went over to grandma house !
Mum's side , IDK why , i thought it was father side first
maybe cause my mum is the only girl in her family and all her brothers will be visiting on the first day
thats why i guess , hahaha
well , its different year , different days , same usual thing
Eat , talk , gamble
HAHA i been eating eating eating eating non stop hahaha
My uncle iniated to gamble with us .
hahah then he ended up giving us alot of money
HAHAH , god of fortune ^ ^
me and my sister keep winning . HAHA
den he complain to our father claiming that we play cheat !
HAHHHHHHHHHHHahaha , my father was like " aiya , you give up lah , youngsters nowadays ah tsktsk mai siao siao . Not easy to deal with one " haha
we all bursted into laughter
my two sister played retarded games with my younger cousins
Those who lose , faces must be drawen by the winner !
with a eye liner o.o
HAHAH , all the faces look ><
shall not say
too retarded .

Today , Went over to dad's side
His sibilings and aunties ,
Cause our grandpa lives with us and he is the eldest they will be visiting us only tmr
still idk why.
Nothing much , just the usual stuff
haha . My auntie a drama director and dance director wanted to poach me and my elder sister
to perform with her hahaha , My elder sister use to be under her , and my auntie knows madam yan so yeah
hahaha .

Its suppose to be a happy new year
why isit not happy ?
Is it just me?
I know you have your reasons but tell me why would ya ?

When the headphones are on
I go into my little world with lullabies
Engulfed by music
This little world only have just you me and the music
It just brings me next to you

2010-02-13T22:09:00.002+08:00

Then what is it that your are not talking to me ? ):

2010-02-13T21:52:00.000+08:00

Why does the world just crashes down
at the climax of my life
Its like the lights of my city being turned off
so suddenly so quickly , Without a warning
Its just like my whole world just shattered
Into pieces no one can fix except you .
Pardon me but i dont know what you mean ? );
I dunno why all this is happening again
I just wanna know why
Maybe it was just something i did do wrong

As we watches the sun , She is the only one i have my eyes on

:D :D :D

2010-02-12T19:56:00.002+08:00

Hellllllllo !!!!!!!!!
Teeheeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D
Love today !
hahahahaha .
In the morning , attended a period of english then went to report for dance prep
change , make up and everything den went to perform :D
Everything went welllllllllllllllllllll :D
Daryl Yao zu and bingshun can to our school to perform too !
hahahaha
Poor them kena scolded by YanYan
hahahha
after that went to compass with simon cause he wanted find something and i wanted to do my stuff too lah :D
went to meet herrrr :D
yay , finally see her after soooooo long .
Miss her ttm :D
althought just seen her like 1 hour ago , i am missing her already :D
hahhaha.
happy happy day :D

I Love the gift :D
I Love the lullabies through the headphone
I love the way the headphone messes up my hair
I love the headphone
nah , I love you more :D

let me say something selfish , I want you to be mine forever :D
Love you :D

When you realise that you want to spend the rest of your life with someone , you want the rest of your life to start right now .
:D

Dillon Wu Wudi !

2010-02-09T16:58:00.000+08:00

Here the pictures of my IDOL :D
WOOOOOOO DARYL MUST SEE THIS !

HANDSOME RIGHT WOO ! WUDIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII :D

2010-02-09T16:30:00.001+08:00

Yesterday !
Got back poa results
fine , i have it back like last friday
just forgot to post !
I wanted to show off lah of course :X
24/25 ! Hahaha :D happy :D
eheh , nothing much happen . maths was as usual boring .
chem , mr douglas lost his patience
oops
Went home
Then went to house nearby to train with zhi wei
that lazy bum wont even train properly
assssssss ~
trained 540s and other ji qiao
plus taolu of course
hahah tired ttm

Today ,
Maths again was a bore .
ms loo menopause lahhhhhhhhhh
zzz
ohyeah , There is POA test tmr again
I havent studied
Dieeeeeeeeee
hahahha
after school , went to Kallang to meet xinyu laoshi (:
with rain who tagged along
Bought my Jian , Shoes and Pants
Finally!
My new jian is not as nice as my old one D:
nvmmmmmmmmmm
went to eat katong laksa and home

You know what ? i love you ttm :D

oops

2010-02-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

Oops !
I Know it have been like a few days since i posted
But i had my reasons though
HAHAH;
One was being lazy :X
the other was cause the com had some stupid problem
Now the smart me having finally fixed it ! HAHA.
oops. Its 1205 and i am not sleeping ! why ?
I will explain later :D

Friday ! Went for training as usual
leg feeling better but
I cant even do a aerial
i dunno if its my legs that is failing me
or its my confidence.

Saturday :D
Had charity carwash sort of thing
in the morning
was late :X
Was fun but very very tirng
after that , ishan 3 or 4 th birthday bash
HAHAHA
cake came in
Happy birthday and stuff
Water ballons cakes shoes water flying all over our school floyer !
HAHAHA
after that went ard temasek to slack and home (:
had lots of fun

HAD SUNDAY
omfg i went to watch WUDI !
omgomgomgomgomg
i KNOW ITS GAY BUT I AM FUCKING IN LOVE WITH THIS GUY
AWESOME PERFORMANCE
Beijing wushu team and Kuenwushu team perform at vt
Amazingggggggg
Took photo with WUDI and He shaked my hand
ohgod , My idol for so long ! and i get to see him in person and shaked his hand ! ohgoddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd
i am in love with a guy ! HAHA
he is my insipiration in training man
after watching the performance see-ing how good they were
really made me feel regretful
All the time i slacked and wasted during training , thinking that i have already perfected myself
which is bullshit , i realised how much hope xinyu laoshi pin on me and how much i have shown to proven him wrong . I wasted my freaking time , playing a fool . slacking not training properly
Competition is like a month away and i am injury prone.
I feel so regretful .
But there is ard 30 days left
I will do my best to train in these 30 days i have left .
I will not let xinyu laoshi , liuqiang laoshi and all those who supported me down
i wont let myself down .
This 30 days . I will put in everything i have in training
I promise to do myself a favour
i know weird

Thanks Wudi , my greatest insipiration
I insipire to become like you someday.

you :D

2010-02-04T22:23:00.001+08:00

Your voice are music to my ear
Your eyes are my Sunshine
Your lips the sweetest sugar
Your scent sends me to heaven
Your Smile so beautiful it could make me fly .
If there was something that can bring me alive when i am dead , Its you.

I wanted to post this some time ago , but i just didnt how to complete the sentence but now that i realise that you were always with me , I realised that nothing else matters (:

2010-02-03T22:28:00.000+08:00

Now that you mentioned it
I always wanted to say this but keep forgetting
I am also having a huge headache
cause of you lah ! Hahah:D
still , i love you :D

2010-02-03T21:17:00.000+08:00

Some random person send me this 12 questions via email
so decided to post ! :D

1. Whats your age ?
14 , turning 15

2. School-ing ?
yes !

3. What are your hobbies?
Wushu , dance , most type of sports !

4. Do you like sports ?
I do ! especially competitive sports like soccer , cause when you are on the pitch facing off with your oppents , you tend to do your best . I love pushing myself to the limit cause till then i wont know what i am capable of .

5. What do you usually do to kill time ?
Sing , dance , listen to music !

6. What are you very interested in ?
Her :D

7. Are you in a relationship?
Kind of ? (:

8. Which of your relationship was the longest ? and how long.
15 months and counting

9. Do you intend to marry the girl you are currently with now?
Yes :D
10. Does age matters to you?
Nope , as long the two love each other . their ages can be 10 years apart but when they truly love they are just 10 secs away .
11. Is the background of your partner important?
I love her , not her background
12. At what age do you intend to marry?
I dunno ? :X
13. How children(S) do you intend to have?
Erm , 2 or 3 ? Depends on my wife :D

Hahaha random questions
6 personal questions
7 love questions !

03/11/10

2010-02-03T20:28:00.000+08:00

Today is 3rd Feb 2010 ,
Happy Day :D
15 th anniv :D
Schoooool , Die . Had Chinese And English Paper today
Ct ~
English was okay , i am so going to fail chinese paper !
Die .
Skipped Assembly !
With 9 other boys hahahaha.
played hide and seek with the staff checking for pupils who skipped assembly
Ran ard the school to avoid them , hahah , Thrilling !
teeheeeeeeeeeee .

I know the picture very blurrrrrr , but my phone sucks what do do ! Hahahaha
sorry for the obscene Coffeshop i opened :X

Hahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahaha , stayed back to watch floorball match
Katong convent vs Chua Chio Kang
Their coach was damn noisy , lol
I shouted , coach you need bananas?
hahahahaha
I know its random but yeah :X
Haaha.

Love you :D

2010-02-02T19:34:00.000+08:00

Today is a happy day ! :D
nothing much happen today
except we were going crazy singing songs during maths lesson
...outside class !
hahahaha . 16 of us got send out of the class during math
Hahaha let me think
Zul , rizqin , jerome , zong sian , titus , yuan ling , joanna , kristy , laything , lin ying , ahmad , diyanah , shao kai . I dunno if i missed anyone out !
Had a fun time outside singing songs !
hahaha , maths teacher menopause lahhhhhhhhh, HAHAHA
who cares .

Two is indeed better one .
Into your arms , thats where i want to be forever (:

ouch

2010-02-01T20:00:00.000+08:00

Lessons boring as usual today ,
had a nice nap during chinese
totally dozed off :X
hahaha.
nothing much happened after that
after lessons
went to school's ISH
to company jianhong and zul put their bags
cause they had floorball match later on
Saw some hot girls playing , not really hot to me lah
jianhong and zul was like , omg omg look at the

number 03 , 08 . cause they were wearing jerseys

obviously . hahaha

Jianhong went like , now i sick . See them play later i sure top form
then the discussion went on and on . lol . They totally left me out cause i wasnt abit interested at all . haha
okay okay i admit there was this girl who was quite hot but compared to you , she is nothing. cause to me you are already the most beautiful. jianghong and zul went bonkers talking abt the girl . -.-
and man the girls was damn rough @.@
hahaha went to eat with them and went home

After i went home ,

Mummy told me to go see a chinese doc for my leg
so i went .
And i swear it was ~!@#$% pain
She used 8- 10 freaking needles and assault my leg
and ouch , ><
pain . hahahaha. Then she use this very traditional bamboo cups alike thing
put on top of the holes she made on leg , She burned the thing and i could feel the freaking heat
Ouchhhhhhhhhhhhh. and in the process of doing so , she left 3 needles on my leg

ouch again. hahahahahaha

then went she took out the bamboo cups . Could see the blood cloth
that the thing sucked out? my blood looked like a leech but just red in colour

Disgusting right , hahaha very pain you knowwwwwwww.

2010-01-31T10:27:00.009+08:00

There was a new girl in town.
She had it all figured out. (Had it all figured out)
And I'll state something rash. It isnt rash
She had the most amazing .. smile
You don't just have the most amazing , but the smile that brings wonders to my life

I bet you didnt expect that
But she made me change my ways. (She made me change my ways)
You changed me , to a better person
With eyes like a sunet baby You do have a pair of this eyes
And legs that went on for days

I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart.
I need to find my way back to the start.
When we were in love.
Oh things were better than they are.
Let me back into
Into your arms.
Into your arms.
There is where i belong

She made her way to the bar.
I tried to talk to her.
But she seemed so far. (She seems so far)
You might seem far away , but i know you are always there
Outta my league.
I had to find a way to get her next to me.

I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart
I need to find my way back to the start
When we were in love
Oh things were better than they are
Let me back into
Into your arms
Into your arms
There is where i belong

Oh she's slippin' away
I always reach when I'm thinking of words to say
All the things she does
Make it seem like love It was love It's just a game. (Just a game)
It wasnt just a game , cause we love
Then I like the way that we play

I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart
I need to find my way back to the start

I'm fallin' in love
But it's fallin' apart
I need to find my way back to the start
When we were in love
Oh things were better than they are
Let me back into.
Into your arms
Into your arms
Into your arms
Into your arms

Let me back into your arms cause i know there is where i want to be and where i belong. I know we will find our way back to the start . But for now , I will wait for you .I heard this song lots of time
Sang it alot of times
Made covers of it
Acoustic and original
But this song seem so much nicer when i heard it from your blog
All the love songs i heard . Was never as nice as the ones i heard from you

2010-01-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

What did i say wrong?
Why ..
I know you just didnt feel like it today
call me petty ,
but after reading your posts
i felt jealous .
I dunno why
Am i just looking into things too much?
or maybe i am just too petty .
I dunno why ,
But when i stared at my phone
waiting for it ring
every minute seemed to be a hour
I know i might have said something i shouldnt say last night
but ..
i dunno . i really dont wanna lose you
i really cant take it when we don't talk
Tmr is coming in a few minutes
I just hope that you will talk to me

(:

2010-01-30T10:54:00.000+08:00

Yesteray !
Had POA test .
I think can do quite well
the paper was 25 marks
only screwed a 2 marks question
So i think its okay ?
haha.
Used the pen you gave me (:
After that went des for CCA
tiring ttm
Bathed there
went to bugis to look for zw present
went to zw chalet
then i lazy type lah :X
haha
Went home at 1 30 plus
cabbed home reached ard 145
Said some unhappy stuff
I am the one who is suppose to say sorry not you
why did you say sorry when it isnt your at all fault :D
To know how much you love me
Really makes me happy
Now that I am certain I Don't want anyone else (:
I love you

2010-01-28T22:13:00.000+08:00

To know how miserable you are
and i cant do a fuck about it
it hurts me .
But you still have me ,
I am always here
You can always relate your problems to me
please do me a favour and cheer up :D

2010-01-28T20:35:00.003+08:00

I dunno how to express my love for you
all i can say is i really love you :D

Love that song .
The line describes you
~~she~~ You have the most amazing smile :D

Love you
Gonna use the pen you gave me for tmr's test (:

Dun be like this baby
Cheer up please :D

2010-01-28T17:54:00.000+08:00

Meow !
Hahahahaha , Back from a super tiring day
Lessons till 3 plus D:
Had Art , Got F - ed by mrs jonoh
mood swing man ><
haha
Slept throughtout chinese lesson :X
I only lie on my chair and sleep
Jianhong more zai
Went to the back of the class
and lie on two chairs :X
Prooooooo ~
HAHHA
Some ASSHOLE provoked me today
and activated my mood change button .
When i am sleeping somemore ,
Seriously Don't do that again
Or you wont just a get light punch .
-.-
asshole , Nvm.

Yesterday!
After school went for dance
super tired
I pulled my ligament AGAIN.
oww , dun even know how to perform for CNY
die ~
not to mention going hongkong
Now i do one che kong also need rest for 5 mins
Den i feel better
the strain is so freaking intense ><
nvmm that
at least i got to train yesterday
Changed my taolu abit :D
Signature moves :X
HAHAHA
still feeling the ache all over my body
And that is dance tmr

Needa study for tmr POA test
ahh , I shall get full marks ! HAHA
impossible .
Playing Mahjong on viwawa
Fun :D
Jie jie we play together later okay ? :X
HAHAH

(:

2010-01-26T18:56:00.001+08:00

Hello !
Surived yet another tiring day at school :D
Had stupid maths for 1 and 1/2 hour
Doing questions that make my head crack
Had geog test
I am going to fail ><
But but but but ,
I wont fail the next test on monday :D
study study ..
Hee after school celebrated Inqa birthday in class
with lots of fellow peer leaders
lots of people (:
The cake was extremely big O.O
even the principle came in to wish her happy birthday
haha lucky girl
happy birthday (:
after that went to wash cars
to raise funds for school's needy people
actually the actual thing on saturday
but today was just practice? hahah
after that slacked ard in school
went home (:

Miss you .. (:

2010-01-25T19:29:00.001+08:00

School was very tiring today ,
Art is super super super screwed
Doing Henri Matisse style of painting which i had no idea
how to do at all .
Drawing some partially nude woman
then paint them with different different blends of colours
with only 12 base colours is not fun
But still , it was the most relaxing lesson !
hahaha Ms Jonoh and mr nicholas switched on the radio
and was singing throughtout the lesson O.O
Mr nicholas could actually beatbox ! cooooool :D
Haha , the rest of the day was normal
My skull almost cracked in Chem and Maths class
When i am reading the textbook trying to understand
the teacher goes to another question which is more cheem
wthhhhhhhhh -.-
Mr douglas stop talking so fast !
Give your chem rep a break !
Hahaha
After school went to bedok corner to eat with
Zul , Ismail , Syabil , Jianhong , Muza , Ishan , Yonglin
Marilyn and yuan ling . Saw Skye and Zoey there (:
You two grown tall :X
hahaah. After that went to POSB to withdraw money with mummy cause i wanted buy a new jian
So instead of taking out the money my mum applied a ATM card for me
yay :D
But i think i will just finish using every single cent within a few days :X
Woops.
Hahaha
There is Geog test tmr
POA test on Thur
Chem test next week
I havent study yet !
And i am just too lazy :X
Oops ! Going for dinner now
byebye (:

See I so ting hua (: update le :D
Stop skipping dinner ! not good (:

Happy :D

2010-01-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

Hello people !
I am finally back home after a long long day !
Lets see what happen yesterday ! (:
23th jan
Performance at Chinatown !
reached DES at 1 plus
practiced , make up , change and everything
Went down to chinatown !
The bus driver was super steady,
He managed to drive into a small lane
from a very narrow angle
Claps*
Our eyes met , we smiled
i melted .
Then rehearseal , super tiring !
the starting was only suppose to do 2 Ji qiao
Ended up doing 6 O.O
Cause the lane was too long
haha , tirng but fun !
Den rest awhile , den performance start
Luckily dint screw up :D
Went back des ,
Bathed there ! super shiok
Den blah blah at des
went home :D

Today !
Went down to AMK hub to meet daryl
whew , far place from my house
went to see a chinese doctor
For our injured legs
felt better after that
Went to doby to eat
after that Daryl went to buy bubble tea
and only after drinking like 1/8 of it
He spilled it in the mrt station
he was afraid the cleaner would scold him
den we ran away
HAHA .
Went down to des to say hi
den went to bugis to meet my classmates
Did art homework
Took lots of pictures for art hw
Looked like some tourist first time in sg
HAHA
after that went do some stupid stuff
den came home.
i am dead tired
but i am happy (:

Thanks ,
I wont give up the fight
and , did i mention that you look super cute and mature in your new specs ?:D

2010-01-23T01:18:00.001+08:00

My heart shattered into a million pieces
no ,
Our heart shattered into 2 million pieces
I cant help but tear
I am sorry for making you tear
I am sorry i ever doubted you
I know i have should have nv done that
But i promise darling , i will try

try to see that smile
And i want to let you know that
the best for me , is not giving up
but holding on . Thats the best for me.
Because its for you , and you all that I am happy for
How i wish i could wipe your tears away

We realised how strong our love was ,
But we just have to part
To make this story end
But there is always a new Chapter 2 in every new book
I want to move on and go on
while holding your hands to write this story together
and no one else

I know someday we will complete our dance as well

2010-01-22T23:43:00.002+08:00

Dragons and Phoenix are myths
but in myths
They were meant and created to be together as one perfect pair

Yet again I see you in my dreams .

Confused

2010-01-22T23:33:00.001+08:00

So what was your answer?
I dun really know
I wanna really know that so bad

I wanna let you know that
Its totally fine
Because I want you to be happy
If that i can achieve , i will be the type of guy that is facing extinction
But sometimes I am just too selfish
I want you all to myself
Without knowing your diffculties
Without thinking for you ..
But i am trying ..
I know i cried over you lots of times
So did you
Scarifice much for you
yes you did , maybe twice as much
Sometimes I really feel that i am failure in life
Fail in being a guy who loves his girl
I fail in doing that ..
But I am trying , thats all i can do for you
I wont be whining over your answer but i just wanna know
What really is your answer ?
I know your studies are important
but what do you mean by MAYBE?
I dun understand ..

This feeling so strong

2010-01-21T17:08:00.001+08:00

Finally back from school !
nothing much happen today
had art ! super slack
i was very tired thought so i had a nice nap (:
i failed my fucking physics test cause i didnt put in SI units
but my answers were all correct suppose to get like 13/15
ended up with a 6 .
Screwed up
After school went to eat
with ASWS !
Callaghan , Gaskarth , Barakat , Merrick
hahah , we such wannabes :X
who cares ! its for fun
went ard disturbing people
haha , had fun
alright !

YESTERDAY
went down to DES to perform at buddha tooth relic
with the teachers
for chinatown press conference
Madam yan was in like a super good mood
Even when jingle bell forgot to come out on stage
in the middle of the rehearseal , she didnt scold !
So unlike her
She had a new haircut . no comments :X
after that went back to des to do some packing
and clear some stuff
Left DES at 10 plusss
Dead tired.
Later going des for chinatown rehearseal ._.

Whats this strong feeling..
It makes me feel so certain


                          I miss you , How i wish i could see you right now
                         Waiting for your answer (:

Its okay

2010-01-19T20:18:00.000+08:00

its okay , take some time to decide
follow what your heart tells you
i know somewhere deep inside
our story still exist
with no last page..
just remember to tell
me your decision (:

            God gave me 2 eyes to see , 2 ears to listen
            2 arms to touch 2 legs to walk but only 1 heart
            because there was two hearts , but the hearts
            was shared with you.

i am waiting

2010-01-19T15:16:00.003+08:00

Back from all the bitching at school
English and maths teacher was super bitchy today .
totally pissed me off ._.
Stupid english teacher talk as if she is the empress
always look upwards when she talk , making stupid expression
act cute . WTF man
Worse of all , she insult Chinese dance? say our dancers fat?
Oh please , could you fucking get a mirror and take a look how fat you are yourself?
And please get a extra big ,
I dun think a 50ftx50ft mirror can even see half you
Fat shit.
Get a life , i bet you cant even wear a leotard
The straps will most probably snap .
assshole.
Maths teacher was just plain bitchy :/
Stayed back to do SS
wrote super long
Left class ard 1.30
Went to get lunch with zul and jianhong
After that went gym
Walked home with Jonathan and jeremy
Haha 3 J walking together
Stupid Jonathan trick me into jumping to the other side of the drain
Cause he said that was no other road infront to walk
and being unfamiliar with the road and i couldnt see the road infront
I believed in this fren of mine whom i known for 7 years !
cheated my feelings ):
ohwell , even the best of frens plays tricks on you .
Lots of homework to be done !
byebye

I pray every next day i would hear something from you
Whatever it is i will be waiting
I am waiting here for you to complete me
Only you can ..

In love there is no impossibilities

One time more

2010-01-18T17:01:00.002+08:00

One more chance darling
Please
Just once

Give me a chance?

2010-01-18T15:40:00.002+08:00

Hello worldddddddddddddddddd (:
Back from tiring school !
Today was kinda fun especially during art
outdoor sketching
Then colouring with impressionism
Hhahaha
Never thought i would enjoy art :/
okay..
Let see what happen yesterday !

Sunday
Went down to des for practice
Ended at 10
Wtf man
stupid yan yan
Assssssssss .
Had some preview for chinatown representives
The stupid dragon was like so heavy
Shouldnt go much into detail
cause there was too many things happening
haha
everyone ate mood swing medicine yesterday
haha especially weijie and Xiaoxing laoshi
meowwwww.
Scary. hahah
Thats all for today (: byebye

You know everytime I look at you or even see you
i just wanna run up to you and hug you
I cant help but steal glances at you
I know you are looking but you just turn away
I want to look into your eye and say i love you
i wanna feel your touch
i wanna hear your voice
i wanna feel your love
i wanna smell your scent
Everything wonderful in my life just comes together when i see you
silly as it is , i wanna try
I wanna try one more time
Will you give me the chance?
I miss you

The day is finally over!

2010-01-16T23:41:00.002+08:00

Oh finally , everything have come to an end
so freaking tiring !
I thought i was going to be backstage
so i wore kinda black :/
den in the end went frontstage to help out .
AH !
tired
Was at VT from 2 - 10
i am like super tired
But but but you know what?

I reached home and switched on the computer
and open my internet explorer and type in .....
and the most beautiful smile appear
on my computer smile
It totally put a smile on my face too

I wanna let you know that
You look best to me in whatever you wear
or whatever your hairstyle is like
Cause to me , you are not just another girl
but a girl who changed me
or rather the angel of my life.
I am really missing you alot ,
i dunno how to express this feeling
i can only say..

I really love you
and
I love that smile of yours :D

its killing me too

2010-01-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

Yay ! Finally finished training !
Now blogging at des !
Cause there is no body here
all went for rehearseal at VT
heeeee ~
Training was super slack
Did practically nthin
Oh well
Gonna assist tmr and work backstage
gonna miss out the performance again !
sadd!

I miss you so bad ..
I really wanna try again
But your studies your parents and everything...
haix
its just tearing me inside
To not have you by my side

Its not your fault

2010-01-14T21:06:00.002+08:00

It isnt your fault
and you are not putting me through any pain
i won't say we deserve this
but i will endure this
why?
Cause i love you
and i cant imagine my future without you

I hope you will hold on
I'll be waiting (:
You have been hurt too ,
and i am sorry

Baby , i love you

):

2010-01-14T19:16:00.000+08:00

Could days be getting any worse?
Bad things just keeps happening
Why the fuck man ?
This is so amusing.
Living like that is just tiring
i am tired of all this

Why ?

hahaha , why that does it hurt me so bad?

2010-01-13T18:25:00.006+08:00

School !
Screwed , after nt doing my hair and look like some retard after a few days
I finally made an effort to wake up early and do it
And guess what?
The DM annouced there are still boys with wrong hairstyle
and the next minute
3 ~ 5 teachers at back came to me
and pull me out
One teacher asked
Teacher : Do you know that your hairstyle is wrong?
Me : Ya and then ? (Sleepy tone)
Teacher : Then why are you making the mistake when you know its wrong
Me : Isit ? But cher to ERR is human , so people do make mistakes don't they ? And mine is just a minor one
Teacher : But who would make such a stupid mistake?
Me : So you are calling stupid ? (sarcastic and purposely :x)
Teacher : No i am not (ANGRY OOPS :x)
Me : See ? people makes mistakes . Don't they?
Teacher : Go flatten your hair Now or your parents will be called up!
Me : Call lor , see who die (mubbling to myself)
Teacher : What ?
Me : Oh nothing , go do hair .
i purposely took quite long cause that particular teacher seem to be forever picking on chinese dance group .
(comes out)
Teacher : Why the hell did you so long just to flatten a hair
Me : You know that hell isnt just long ? But its deep too . I needa make sure do properly mah if not later you CALL my parents how (scarstic tone)
teacher walks away
Wth lah , teacher nowadays no life .
hahah w/e

after school went jamming for 2 hours !
kinda wasted time
but still practised quite abit
Home ,
Homework undone > <
dead.

I totally lost without you guiding the way
Its been like ystd since i lost you
I am missing you so damn bad .
I am falling in love
But its falling apart
i need to find my way back to the start
When we were in love
Things were better then they are
let me back into , into your arms
(The maine-Into your arms)
Let me back into your arms baby
i really wanna hold you tigh like i always did
This days life seem to be getting harder
With like everything in your way
even the things you do
My heart even seem to beat slower without you
Its killing myself inside
Its like feeling turn into millions of knifes
Stabbing you deep
without killing you
Leaving you in doubt
Make you wonder
Give you hope.
Tell me what to say
So you dont leave me

,
48 Days without you baby ):

Whew

2010-01-11T17:09:00.004+08:00

Today is 11 minus 1 equals 10 !
11/1/10
Finally havin the time to blog
Long long long long weekend for me
Totally shagged out
Alright lets start with friday !
Had CCA fair in school
Perform one dance and one wushu
Was playing on stage :X
oops.
But i didnt screw up okayy!
HAHAH

Saturday
Went down to des to assist Till 4
Den went for competition training
super tired den at 7
Went to dance Dragon
For Cheenatown
ended at 10
wtf man
cause of stupid jingle bell
Fuck him man .
Fucker wasted my time.
totally spoiled my freaking plan
Nvm.
Went home after that
Reach Ard 1130
Dad called home and ask if i wanted to go cage at ECP to play soccer
Den i hestitated for awhile but den i agreed
Changed and everything
Cabbed down to ECP
PLay from 12 to 2
Got injured so i went to take a stroll at the beach
Though of many stuff
Its just so hard not to do anything abt it
I missing you so damn bad
But what can i do?
haix.
Went back to the pitch ard 3
Den went home
Ate prata at some malay shop opposite my house
The prata failed.
Lol. So much for making me thinking i was going to have good food.

Sunday
Went down to des
To practice some wushu performance crap
Then went for competition training
My tigh injuries getting worse
Training was kinda slack too :X
Nvm
i learned Drunken sword !
My back almost broke
while doing the balance
ohwell.

Today
Went to school as usual
slack day
Geog and chem teacher didnt come !
Hhaha
After school did two songs for
UWHEN ling and jane
For their birthday as promised
its kinda late but yeah :X
Did Into Your Arms by THE MAINE
damned if i do ya by ALL TIME LOW
With my best buddies and guitarist of ASWS !
Ismail and zul .
Had unexpected backup vocals from marilyn and felicia
High Pitch !
but i guess it helped (:
Yeah i admit i screwed up the second song but who cares :X
thanks to zul who forgot to back me up and muza who made stupid faces that made me laugh .
hahaha
Hope to get our drummer soon
Maybe goin for jamming tmr !
yay.

Don't tell me forget to you
Cause I won't
Please teach me what do
I miss you so bad.

2010-01-07T21:30:00.001+08:00

Yes . We never know.
One thing i know my love for you
I will wait (:
Baby please smile :D

Ohwell was dancing for the past few days
danced 4 times in a row
7Mins+ 4mins+ 4mins+ 7mins
And i am the only one in the whole dance group
that do that.
wtf .
I am awfully tired now
And there is performance tmr
I will blog another day
Bye

Fucked up day
Yes , mess with me
anything
But my necklace.
You try messing with me over that again
You'll see what you get . Bitch.

rmb to smile (:

Tired !

2010-01-05T21:26:00.000+08:00

Just got home from des !
I am super tired ,
My limbs are beaking apart
Whew , finally i can lie down and be a pig.
HAHAHA!
had stupid Maths test today
Didnt really do :x
and and !

CHUA HUISI
please cheer up (:
Idk whats wrong but , cheer up !
(: teehheeeeeeee see you tmr morning !

I realised something today
I was kinda moody is class
Idk why
Then i saw you in my mind
Smiling (:
It send me right back to heaven ,
Your smile really brings wonder to my life
I had to say you had the most amazing...
SMILE

1st day of sch

2010-01-04T20:18:00.001+08:00

It first day of sch
i have nothing much to say
It was freaking tiring
Cause i was on peer leader duty i was flying all over the place to do stuff
> <
I am super tired now

I know that you still love me
i am just happy
although i am not able to be able to solve everything
I will let this line carry me on to wait for you
'' we might find our place in this world someday"
Yes i believe in that
Believe in me girl . I really love you .
And i wont let it be just words
i'll wait :D

2010-01-03T22:37:00.002+08:00

Back from alex wang concert !
Maybe alot ppl might find it stupid but i think i enjoyed
although he was gay and everthing
Maybe cause i understand how he feels
His songs evoke how he feels
And yeah , there is school tmr ._.

I am just happy to able to see you
I wish that i could just see you on the 3rd of every month
Your smile just brings wonder to my life
But i am feeling down
I dunno why
Its just sad not to be able see what i wanted to see .

3th Jan

2010-01-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

Its 3rd Jan already ,
Its amazing how time files
From who we are before till who we are today
So how many things happen
And before we know it changes
You use to call me
Jamie -> sunshine -> darling
and till now?
We use to say how much we love each then we start doing things to show our love
and now ?
we use to have little fights the very next moment we would starting hugging and smiling
and now ?
We use to walk together and talk rubbish
now ?

So many things change so fast
How i hope we remained like we use to
And now the question still remains a question mark
Its the first Sunday of 2010
First 3rd Jan of 2010
How i wish i could spend it with you
Walking on the beach enjoying the breeze
But its kinda impossbile .
This anniversary date
There is only truth that i seek for
D Y S L M ?
Whatever the answer , i will keep to ways

From square 1

2010-01-02T12:09:00.000+08:00

2010 is finally here ,
2009 was one the best years i had , the saddest year too
many things happen , life itself became a teacher .
You too taught me alot of things
I just wanna let you know , i will hold on
no matter what it takes.
Another year gone , i have apprehended lots of things in life
One is , what you want , is what you will fight for , Let sheer willpower keep you moving
thats why i hold on .
When you take a step to a side , you will see things in whole new persepective.
I learn to do that , not always. But i do

I hope you see this.
Take care .

And Chole , thanks for speaking what i always wanted to say.
and cheer up , i know there is a way out
maybe some people just needs more time
not to mention diffculties
i dunno really know and all i can do is
tell you to cheer up (:
so please do cheer up (:
happy new year as well :D

2010-01-02T01:10:00.000+08:00

"To truly understand the beauty of love , Is through experience of the pain of love"

You are so beautiful.

2010

2010-01-01T13:33:00.000+08:00

The arrival of 2010 is here ! Wooooo , Went for countdown at Marina square !
The fireworks was awesome ! The people there was freaking high
screaming and shouting .
Hahahaha
Celebrated Xinyu Laoshi birthday too !
Went with ard 11 people ?
Cant remember ! Hahahahaha
After countdown we headed to clarke quay ,
The first time i see singaporeans so united !
All J - walked in all directions ! hahaha epic ! its happening in every road
the Traffic police couldnt do shit.
Reached Clarke quay . The crowd was wtf . lol
we went to look for a place to slack
Ended up buying beers from 7 - 11
Didnt really drink
Then there was this road where we walked past ppl spraying the white colour foam?
idk wth is that but later we join in the fun
They went to buy the spray
Then 11 of us all ran in the road spraying everyone we saw. HAHAHA
fun!
After that , kangwei got stopped by police ! HAHA, unlucky huh .
All soaked in foam we went to look for a toilet then we stumbled on a open club?
DJs and ppl dancing on the street
So again we join in the fun and danced along .
Tecktonik ~~~~~~~
hahaha , after the crowd disperse to went to look for cab to go home
on our way there , saw alot of ppl drunk on the street , Sleeping
and people in bandages , ambulance came as well
people fought. Maybe all too drunk lo . hahah
Then saw this super fat angmoh woman stripping
Wtf man ! so fucking disgusting > <
Rightttttttt , finally after competiting with so many ppl to hire cab
finally got one ! me , simon , jiemin and mingyi went first
cause i was going home as i was sick and tired.
The rest was going to simon's house so they did . ya..
ahaha
Went to ECP macs Drive thru
the person that took our order was freaking funny
Us: doublecheese burger meal .
Cashier : Doublechess burger meal upsize?
Us: NO . meal
Cahsier : NONONONO no upsize. lol
She said alot funny stuff i couldnt rmb , ahaha
got one i asked her ,
Me : why is there a feather in my mcchicken ?
Cashier : mchicken upsize?
Me : Nono feather ,
Cashier : huh?
me: Curry sauce and garlic chilli pls.
HAHAHA
went home ~
Happy new year to all :D

the question persist .
praying for an answer.

2009-12-31T14:58:00.000+08:00

Of all days , heaven chose this day for me to be sad
i am injured all over , sick , blocknose , sore throat .
But non of this can compare to pain in my heart
Just taken medicine , gonna sleep soon.
Doing all this to make me give up , i won't give up.

Hello and goodbye gesture are the same
why isn't it a hello but a goodbye?
I know what you are doing ,
stop hurting yourself.
Stab me a million times , i will just grow stronger
to love you deeper .

2009-12-31T11:08:00.000+08:00

Where did all go wrong ?
have said anything wrong ?
why are you doing all this me
You gave me hope by letting my guess
You driven all my hopes by erasing the next day
I really dunno whats on your mind
could you please tell me ):
at least let me know where it wrong
you told me we could carry on like friends and talk
but why all this?
its the last day of 2009
a bad day for me?
After so long , we realise how strong was this love
it wasnt puppy love
it wasnt an illusion
it was reality
we choose so many paths together
to try to put this relationship all together
we tried and tried
but now ?
what have happen to us ?
Is loving one another wrong ?
getting in a relationship might be wrong in some eyes
I know
You are hurt , you are sad , you don't want to carry on
But is love wrong?
How wrong is loving one ?
Is love was wrong , i might as well be dead.
Why do you want to let go ?
Why won't you hold on?
Hold on to this memories that keep hopes alive.
Why wont you let me wait ?
You know exactly how i feel
I also know very well that you dun feel any better then i am
I know its hurting us both
But can't we carry on like friends?
and Let this love be carried on
Till that day
Why ?
I am sorry baby , But I can't stop loving you . I can't help myself
I know i am selfish knowing that it'll hurt you by saying all this
but i have to tell you i rather hurt myself then to forget you
I never had a girl that made me feel this way
I never wanted to have someone so bad
I never did love someone so deep
and
I never give up ,
even if i had to wait for that long
Afterall , it will be all worth it , because its you.
This part of my life won't be taken away.

Crying by the phone , waiting for your msgs.
I hope you will talk to me again ,
I know very well where i stand
I know the things that i cant do
I know the things that i want to do but i cant do
I know where to draw the line.
I know i am hurting you by saying all this

i am sorry ,i really am
I feeling miserable , i am lost i dunno what to do next
I really sorry
I had to spill all this to hurt you
But i know i still love you
I beg you , tell me please ..
Do it for me , just this time
please ...

2009-12-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

Finally Back home !
okay , firstly went to des !
1-4
practically did nothing at all
Wasted my time
after that went to plaza with the other boys
cause they wanted to play arcade
i walked past the pillar that i always see you there
waiting for me
for a moment
i thought time went back to the past
i thought i saw you
but the next second it just faded away
I couldnt help it
But i was going to break down and..
Spend the of the time walking ard in plaza and bugis
with yongyi
Didnt really have the mood to do anything at all
I walked every road
Counting every couple in love
How oblivious they are to other ppl
those big smiles on the faces
those in love
hugging , kissing all over the place
there isnt one place without them
they were all in their other own world
seeing how happy there were
i felt sad , unhappy , jealous .
i kept asking why
why must heaven make a fool out of us
why must we seperated?
When we love like any other couples out there
why we cant be together when want to
why ?
Till now the question list keeps going on
i dun understand..
AHH,
fuck ..
Unfair world..
After that went to chapter to cut my hair
cause i had my appointment at 730
got the creative stylish to cut my hair for me
it doesnt feel like me at all now
it doesnt feel right having so little hair on my head
lol.
But i guess its okay .
went to eat at old airport road
then
sayonara
went home.

I love you .
i only managed to solve the last two lines
Still working hard on the rest ..

Tired and sad

2009-12-30T00:45:00.000+08:00

Finally home from des , after stupid hui bao .
Almost tire the living daylights out of me
Did my zi xuan jian and ji ti
Injury all over
Yao Zu , Daryl , Wen bing , me We all had the cramps and leg inguries
ouch ,
After des went to have supper with Simon , shiji ls , bz ls and madam yan
She was scared that there was tikopeh at the coffee shop , lol
epic . Food and drinks was bad .
What a bad day ,
Worse of it all ,
She didn't even talk to me at all
not a word .

Whats wrong? ):

There is des again tmr . I am dead tired. Save me.

Screwed.

2009-12-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

Oh oh oh , i am so screwed !
I just rembered i have des tmr ,
and its 1 - 10
screweddddddddd :/
ahhh
how am i suppose to endure this 9 hour of torture
oh god .
Now , listening to muttons to midnight (:
live from 98.7fm !
Funny :D
Happppy dayyyyy (:
For now ,
Nights (:

The question persist , why has it gonna go this way?
I know there is some way out .

Happy !

2009-12-28T18:56:00.000+08:00

Happy day ! (:
Woke up ard 10 plus today
then went down to clarke quay to buy some stuff from sticky (:
after that went to simon house to help him out for awhile
he kinda quarelled with his mum
funny .
Cabbed down to hougang to do some stuff (:
after that took 43 home
on the bus there was this maid singing
i swear it was awesomely DISGUSTING
then she talked freaking loudly on the phone with some ailen language
I was on the verge of smacking her head .
but didnt . Hahah
When i was about to faint on the bus cause of hunger
Then rain called to meet for lunch
Phone went dead ):
Ate at Parkway then walk ard ,
took 12 home !

After so many moody days , I am finally feeling better (:
Seeing you smile really makes me happy ,
I am happy :D

2009-12-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

"Everyone has the power to make others happy. Some do it by entering the room, others by leaving it''

Not in the best of mood

2009-12-27T16:55:00.000+08:00

Alright , time to update !
Omg , I am gonna die soon
Staying at home and doing practically the same things
Eat , sleep , use computer.
Okay w/e
First of all , sorry to CHOLE for spelling her name wrongly on her tagboard :X
It wasnt intentional !
Hahaha .
Havent been in the best of moods this few days ,
getting very moody out of sudden
I am feeling very down ,
I dunno why ..
Maybe i do know why but i just ...
Uhh forget it , no point anyway
Alright , kinda know some shocking news
Which i went wtf ?
Hahaha , Curious ? :X
Ask me then! hahahaha
Papa bugging me to go play soccer with him
Should i go ?
And
Should i get a tagboard?

D:

Take off your shoes go in the room
Now baby lets try not to argue
Turn off the light Turn on the radio.

2009-12-26T19:50:00.000+08:00

Ahh , watching 42 episodes of drama in 2 days ain't easy !
Watched Da tang shuang long zhuan . Twin of brothers! Its a interesting drama i watched before on tvb.
Found it on TUDOU recently so i decided to watch it again
Its nice !
The couples love and brother love in the show is super heartwarming to see how much they would scarifice for each other .
Althought i watched it umpteen times but I dun mind watching it again , Currently my favourite drama ! (:
My eyes are going to fall out soon from
Straining them on this show .
Alright , just ate dinner , nothing much
just like usual . Had Chicken chop , it tasted okay .
haha
I thought i would enjoy my break from DES but instead i am rotting at home with nothing do .
And i have no idea when is the next time i needa go DES.
I kinda miss training with my DES bros :/
Not that i am gay but its really fun training with them
all the rubbish songs , teasing .
this reminds me of cat :D
boom boom meow !
Best of all , sharing the joy and pain together .
See how much each of us improve ,

Trying different stuff together .

Getting injured , lol i am saddistic.

Okay i shall stop , this is getting gay .

Haha

looking forward to the next training !

Bye !

1st post

2009-12-26T18:37:00.000+08:00

Hello world !
Its my first post in 2 years since i last blogged .
Was Kinda free so decided to create a blog like someone told me to (:
Right? haha
Decided not to have a tagboard yet cause i dun think there would be alot of viewers .
Was too lazy to look for a blogskin , well keeping it simple ain't that bad i guess.
For now , Bye (:
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