Of all days , heaven chose this day for me to be sad
i am injured all over , sick , blocknose , sore throat .
But non of this can compare to pain in my heart
Just taken medicine , gonna sleep soon.
Doing all this to make me give up , i won't give up.

Hello and goodbye gesture are the same
why isn't it a hello but a goodbye?
I know what you are doing ,
stop hurting yourself.
Stab me a million times , i will just grow stronger
to love you deeper .

Where did all go wrong ?
have said anything wrong ?
why are you doing all this me
You gave me hope by letting my guess
You driven all my hopes by erasing the next day
I really dunno whats on your mind
could you please tell me ):
at least let me know where it wrong
you told me we could carry on like friends and talk
but why all this?
its the last day of 2009
a bad day for me?
After so long , we realise how strong was this love
it wasnt puppy love
it wasnt an illusion
it was reality
we choose so many paths together
to try to put this relationship all together
we tried and tried
but now ?
what have happen to us ?
Is loving one another wrong ?
getting in a relationship might be wrong in some eyes
I know
You are hurt , you are sad , you don't want to carry on
But is love wrong?
How wrong is loving one ?
Is love was wrong , i might as well be dead.
Why do you want to let go ?
Why won't you hold on?
Hold on to this memories that keep hopes alive.
Why wont you let me wait ?
You know exactly how i feel
I also know very well that you dun feel any better then i am
I know its hurting us both
But can't we carry on like friends?
and Let this love be carried on
Till that day
Why ?
I am sorry baby , But I can't stop loving you . I can't help myself
I know i am selfish knowing that it'll hurt you by saying all this
but i have to tell you i rather hurt myself then to forget you
I never had a girl that made me feel this way
I never wanted to have someone so bad
I never did love someone so deep
and
I never give up ,
even if i had to wait for that long
Afterall , it will be all worth it , because its you.
This part of my life won't be taken away.

Crying by the phone , waiting for your msgs.
I hope you will talk to me again ,
I know very well where i stand
I know the things that i cant do
I know the things that i want to do but i cant do
I know where to draw the line.
I know i am hurting you by saying all this


i am sorry ,i really am
I feeling miserable , i am lost i dunno what to do next
I really sorry
I had to spill all this to hurt you
But i know i still love you
I beg you , tell me please ..
Do it for me , just this time
please ...

Finally Back home !
okay , firstly went to des !
1-4
practically did nothing at all
Wasted my time
after that went to plaza with the other boys
cause they wanted to play arcade
i walked past the pillar that i always see you there
waiting for me
for a moment
i thought time went back to the past
i thought i saw you
but the next second it just faded away
I couldnt help it
But i was going to break down and..
Spend the of the time walking ard in plaza and bugis
with yongyi
Didnt really have the mood to do anything at all
I walked every road
Counting every couple in love
How oblivious they are to other ppl
those big smiles on the faces
those in love
hugging , kissing all over the place
there isnt one place without them
they were all in their other own world
seeing how happy there were
i felt sad , unhappy , jealous .
i kept asking why
why must heaven make a fool out of us
why must we seperated?
When we love like any other couples out there
why we cant be together when want to
why ?
Till now the question list keeps going on
i dun understand..
AHH,
fuck ..
Unfair world..
After that went to chapter to cut my hair
cause i had my appointment at 730
got the creative stylish to cut my hair for me
it doesnt feel like me at all now
it doesnt feel right having so little hair on my head
lol.
But i guess its okay .
went to eat at old airport road
then
sayonara
went home.




I love you .
i only managed to solve the last two lines
Still working hard on the rest ..

Tired and sad

Finally home from des , after stupid hui bao .
Almost tire the living daylights out of me
Did my zi xuan jian and ji ti
Injury all over
Yao Zu , Daryl , Wen bing , me We all had the cramps and leg inguries
ouch ,
After des went to have supper with Simon , shiji ls , bz ls and madam yan
She was scared that there was tikopeh at the coffee shop , lol
epic . Food and drinks was bad .
What a bad day ,
Worse of it all ,
She didn't even talk to me at all
not a word .

Whats wrong? ):

There is des again tmr . I am dead tired. Save me.

Screwed.

Oh oh oh , i am so screwed !
I just rembered i have des tmr ,
and its 1 - 10
screweddddddddd :/
ahhh
how am i suppose to endure this 9 hour of torture
oh god .
Now , listening to muttons to midnight (:
live from 98.7fm !
Funny :D
Happppy dayyyyy (:
For now ,
Nights (:




The question persist , why has it gonna go this way?
I know there is some way out .

Happy !

Happy day ! (:
Woke up ard 10 plus today
then went down to clarke quay to buy some stuff from sticky (:
after that went to simon house to help him out for awhile
he kinda quarelled with his mum
funny .
Cabbed down to hougang to do some stuff (:
after that took 43 home
on the bus there was this maid singing
i swear it was awesomely DISGUSTING
then she talked freaking loudly on the phone with some ailen language
I was on the verge of smacking her head .
but didnt . Hahah
When i was about to faint on the bus cause of hunger
Then rain called to meet for lunch
Phone went dead ):
Ate at Parkway then walk ard ,
took 12 home !


After so many moody days , I am finally feeling better (:
Seeing you smile really makes me happy ,
I am happy :D

"Everyone has the power to make others happy. Some do it by entering the room, others by leaving it''

Not in the best of mood

Alright , time to update !
Omg , I am gonna die soon
Staying at home and doing practically the same things
Eat , sleep , use computer.
Okay w/e
First of all , sorry to CHOLE for spelling her name wrongly on her tagboard :X
It wasnt intentional !
Hahaha .
Havent been in the best of moods this few days ,
getting very moody out of sudden
I am feeling very down ,
I dunno why ..
Maybe i do know why but i just ...
Uhh forget it , no point anyway
Alright , kinda know some shocking news
Which i went wtf ?
Hahaha , Curious ? :X
Ask me then! hahahaha
Papa bugging me to go play soccer with him
Should i go ?
And
Should i get a tagboard?

D:

Take off your shoes go in the room
Now baby lets try not to argue
Turn off the light Turn on the radio.

Ahh , watching 42 episodes of drama in 2 days ain't easy !
Watched Da tang shuang long zhuan . Twin of brothers! Its a interesting drama i watched before on tvb.
Found it on TUDOU recently so i decided to watch it again
Its nice !
The couples love and brother love in the show is super heartwarming to see how much they would scarifice for each other .
Althought i watched it umpteen times but I dun mind watching it again , Currently my favourite drama ! (:
My eyes are going to fall out soon from
Straining them on this show .
Alright , just ate dinner , nothing much
just like usual . Had Chicken chop , it tasted okay .
haha
I thought i would enjoy my break from DES but instead i am rotting at home with nothing do .
And i have no idea when is the next time i needa go DES.
I kinda miss training with my DES bros :/
Not that i am gay but its really fun training with them
all the rubbish songs , teasing .
this reminds me of cat :D
boom boom meow !
Best of all , sharing the joy and pain together .
See how much each of us improve ,

Trying different stuff together .

Getting injured , lol i am saddistic.

Okay i shall stop , this is getting gay .

Haha

looking forward to the next training !

Bye !

1st post

Hello world !
Its my first post in 2 years since i last blogged .
Was Kinda free so decided to create a blog like someone told me to (:
Right? haha
Decided not to have a tagboard yet cause i dun think there would be alot of viewers .
Was too lazy to look for a blogskin , well keeping it simple ain't that bad i guess.
For now , Bye (:
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