I would rather die .

School was rather amusing today
Was very mood till POA.
When Ms Mara cracked us all up .
With her super funny jokes as usual
haha , was rather high later
God knows why ..
haha , after school went to Tamp
To buy my thigh guard and my jian handle grip .
after like 1 hour plus finally got it
With Guang wei zhi wei and chee chian
They bought guards too .
Went to eat subway
Then home ,
Saw this super cute girl
walking past the mrt station .
When i first saw her , i thought to myself
Why is this japanese girl doing in sg school uni !
hahaha , when i took a closer look
she was wearing Damai 's Uniform
but the skirt was alter till very high
she didnt tie her hair
And her hair was dyed .
I was like woah .
So cute ! haha
wanted to walk over ask for number :X
budden sadly we were going opposite ways
make new frens mah ... hahah
Well , didnt feel like going home
why ?

The fear of disappointment when i dun get what i want to see
the fear when i get home and on the computer
and automatically going to your blog
the fear of breaking down again
Went downstairs to do my artwork as i wanted to some silence
Couldnt help but break down ,
what can i do ?
Zhiwei came down to train awhile with me
Till 8 plus , he talked with me .
felt better , but still bottled with feelings that i cant express

My darkest hour have yet to come ..
Right now , i better be off be died den be here .